Friday, May 22, 2009

The Zygote Diaries – Trey

Every time I feel old, I think of how long my parents have been married, and I realize I am not that old! I think to myself, I don’t even know myself as well as my parents know each other, because I have only known myself for about 28 years! The crazy thing is that I can’t imagine knowing anyone for that long! And then living with them, and then making things and building things with them, until you know them better than you knew yourself before they were around!

It’s been a crazy week – with me trying to figure out exactly what it is that appeals to me in the context of a romantic, life-partner type of situation. If you know me, then you know that the energy it takes to fuel this kind of topic in my brain would put the atomic bomb to shame! But after I have taken the roller coaster ride in my head, checked virtual lists and had schizophrenic debates with me, myself and I; and I’ve gone from one extreme to another and back again…about 18 times, as usual, my source grounds me.

They were married 32 years ago today, and as my source, they are the epitome of trust, confidence, certainty and love to me.

And on the ground, I realize that this kind of thing needs energy.

But if there is any doubt about whether you want to put all your energy into it or not…it probably isn’t worth it.

So, the zygote says, Happy Anniversary Baz and Phil, and in the meantime, I will happily continue preparing scrumptious dinners for one!

5 comments:

Prettylyf said...

Happy Anniversary to your parents!!!

tjidzani said...

Thanks Prettylyf - will let them know!

Shamilicious said...

yay to mama and daddy for making it this far and giving us inspiration!!

pandave said...

Oh wow! Happy Anniversary to your parents. What is more amazing is when you look at them and they have been together for so long but they adore each other still. It gives one such faith, no?

goddessintellect said...

"But if there is any doubt about whether you want to put all your energy into it or not…it probably isn’t worth it."

And that's exactly what I've observed amongst friends/collegues who have tied he knot or wanted to tie the knot. You can't expect that a ring will keep thing cohesive if you yourself are not working together with you partner to do so. I know I'm late but happy anniversary to your parents!!!

p.s loving the pink!!!